I miss you so much, it hurts a lot. I didn’t realize how much I miss this show until this morning, exactly at 3 am. I woke up and realized just had a dream which involved that I was witnessing a Grimm episode in a haunted house. There were Nick and Julliette in my dream. This hiatus is killing me tbh.
Finally after months and months… I changed my theme, and made a proper sidebar gif. Still not making any proper icon though, nope. Although I’m sure people are tired seeing Ferrari icon on their dash, but hey guys… you’re still following me that means the icon is still okay?
Well, if there is any problem or something that distracting from my new theme, go ahead and tell me. I’m nervous about the sidebar gif though since it’s more than 1 MB… and is it pretty?
Obviously I’m still high after that amazing Mentalist episode. So I’m rambling non-sense here. Bye.
Warning: The following text will be full of my personal rant. If you can’t stand rant on blogs that you’ve followed, please skip this post. Thank you.
So… this is it. Finally the whole fiasco of psychic thing on my house exploded. I really can’t stand it anymore. My sister has crossed the line and this time, pretty far away from that line. I don’t know where else I have to rant about this problem… I can’t really rant on twitter because of limited characters, so…. I think I can rant here. Beside… this is my blog and I can do whatever with it. And my sister doesn’t know the existence of this blog, so here we go.
We are orphans. My sister and I. We’ve lost our mother since I was 8 years old and my sister was 3 years old. And we lost our father when I was 20. And I’ve been providing almost everything ever since that time. And this somehow unfortunate situation doesn’t make me feel heavy at all. Until tonight.
So my sister has been obsessed with the whole supernatural stuffs and psychic. I’m actually pretty much against all these, but since this is a choice in a life, I can’t really have any say on her belief. I let her have it as long as she also lets me have my own belief about this matter. So around last week or two weeks ago, she met a psychic and she brought him on my home, without my consent. I was pretty mad at that time, so I locked myself on my room because if I went out and saw all these shit, I might not able to handle my anger. Why I’m mad? Because my sister kept texting me about what this psychic did…. he “read” that my mother wasn’t in peace because of reasons and so was my father. And this psychic did like he was somehow possessed by my parents and my parents wanted to talk to me through his body. And I refused.
And today when I just came home from work, tired and had to prepare for tutoring my neighbors… I found this psychic and my sister on my study room, waiting for me. Because somehow this psychic want to just “chatting” with me. I exploded. I said that I don’t believe him and he somehow kinda tried to insert on my mind how well he can do what so called as job. He said that he knows what my mother did when she was alive… he said “it must have something to do about farming…” DUH… AMAZING RIGHT. THERE WAS A FREAKING BIG PICTURE OF HER WITH MENTIONED “AGRICULTURAL INSTITUTE OF….” Yes, because my mother was a lecturer in an agricultural institute but… no, she was an organic chemistry lecturer on theoretical science department which actually has nothing to do with agricultural or farming for that matter. And I actually threw him out of my house.
But the saddest part was… my sister chose to leave with him. She said she want to know more about what he supposed to say before I threw him out. I felt like hating my sister so much about this and I felt terribly guilty for feeling this way. I hate how that even after everything that I said to her… she still blinded by this psychic. She still weeping about how our parents may not in peace. This made me feel like I’m doing a terrible job while they are away from us. It’s such a sad thing when in one hand… I can’t believe a thing that this psychic said to me but in other hand the way my sister believes on him… makes me feel like perhaps I’m not doing a good job at all on taking care of her, because she still needs to find a peace from what other person said… other person who actually knows nothing about our family.
It has been a long time since I cried for this unfortunate situation of them leaving us… but now I am.
Universe helps me to get through the finale madness. It gives me one day to breathe on Thursday, then on Friday, I will be dead along with the ending on Mentalist finale. Then I get another 24 hours to prepare myself and rise for Grimm ending. Then I get 24 hours to sob in the corner and perhaps giffing most of the finale scenes. Perhaps I will get mixed between Grimm episode and Mentalist… but honestly, who cares? Everything is finales and hurts.
Meantime…. I hope Grimm will give another epic episode tomorrow. So much arc on this series, I hope they will choose it well which one that will end this season.
The awkward moment when you can’t get this cover of Tony Lucca out of your head and you’re just discussing about Mentalist spoiler…
This song is totally inappropriate! Get out from my head!
I mean… what? I love it! I don’t know, man. I just simply love it. There are so much potential angst, and this show needs a continuity angst! The anger, frustration and everything just need to be delivered. I kinda dislike it when after one episode, they just did not touch on important problem on previous episode.
And after everything that they’ve done on this season. Like Jane was back on his con man personality on Fugue in Red, he met his old friend on casino… they kinda lead us to this conclusion.
And I’m happy. Happy for the fact that the team still go on even without Jane. Because sometimes they portray the team often lost without Jane. And Lisbon still as strong as she was before. Hell, with it… if he chose to go, then life must continue! Crimes still happen everyday, why they must dwell on Jane’s exit?
I like it. I even love it! And about Jane/Lisbon. God knows how much I love them. And just call me insane or delusional, but I think this is exactly what they need to step to be more than just friends. They’ve been together almost everyday for 8 years and sometimes you appreciate more of something that you lost. I’m delusional like this, but I have a very good feeling about this.
Just message me if you need to vent or talk about your feelings about these spoilers. I love talking with people in fandom. But yeah… you might get annoyed on how long I usually reply to people on messages x)
YOU JUST KILLED ME TODAY. I JUST… I CAN’T. I think this episode was one of the best. Heck, i think every new episode of Touch is one of the best. I mean now the horror is begin. That dude is supposed to be dead and he…. I CAN’T, MAN.
WHY AM I ALWAYS ON EMOTIONAL STATE AFTER WATCHING TOUCH. STOP THE CAPSLOCK. I CAN’T.
In hell, because they don’t have photoshop there (I think).
I’m so tired right now, but new spoilers just keep me awake and excited. And thanks to some awesome people who are not tired to reply my ridiculous messages (you know who you are).
Sometimes I just flood my blog with Grimm (on Saturday) and most of the time I flood my blog with Mentalist related things. Actually I don’t think it’s healthy o:
Have fun, everyone! Keep excited about final season which will approach us, soon! In Heller, I have to trust!