Then please unfollow me as soon as possible, anon! I won’t mind, really. I probably will never be back to the time when I used to be excited about Mentalist, sadly. I have a lot of things that I resent about The Mentalist right now. Some people probably already knew my issues about the show. Mainly, it’s because I hate the way they handle Red John what so called as useless clues (in my personal opinion). The discontinuity between one episode to the next one. The way they leave us questions without getting answers… and it happens when the show rn is actually one of the worst rating gainer in CBS which mean, it can be axed anytime. I feel like they’re wasting time. And I don’t want to be too invested, because I’m afraid I would never get a real closure about Red John in the end.
So, yeah… I’m sorry if you feel any regret for following me, but you can unfollow me as soon as you read this answer. And I’m sorry that this answer is pretty late because I don’t really have courage to write that I’m actually now is not really this show fan. I have to admit it to myself first. I’m tagging this, in case you don’t check my blog.
I keep wondering over and over again why this episode brought a lot of feelings for me. Then I find the answer. It’s because what happened to Jane actually can happen to anyone especially people who have lost persons who were dear to them.
If we lost someone, we will keep asking ourselves like “Where are they now? Should I keep mourning or move on? If I keep mourning, they won’t know and actually my mourn won’t make them sad, right?”. And these questions will keep burning in our head and sadly, we won’t get the definite answers.
If I have mistakes during my presence here (since I spent significant amount of time on Tumblr), I hope you will kindly forgive my mistakes. Begging something mostly are bad, but begging for forgiveness is never will.
Happy Eid Mubarak for those who celebrate. And for those who don’t, hopefully the joy that we feel, will also reach to you!
The urge to close this tumblr down is actually getting more and more intense nowadays. Moreover when I basically do nothing other than going through my dashboard and reblogging stuffs. And it seems like my followers also agree with this feeling. It’s not worth it to follow me, and I can see on the reflection of losing followers.
But then.. I believe this is only a feeling that will get pass by, eventually. And hopefully.
OMG. That happened to me twice. Thankfully my friends used to copy some of my fandom related files for their collection and therefore I can copy them back. Hopefully, the downloading process won’t take much of your time. Use back up next time~
The thing is…. no one here as crazy as me on these TV series episodes. Sigh. But never mind then. Now I just can laugh on my stupidity, lol. Yes, the downloading process… totally
not looking forward to it.
I can’t imagine what would I do if something like this happened to me. This is terrible. I wish you luck with new external drive :
This is disaster, but it already happened anyway. Thank you! Hopefully this makes me more careful in future.
At least for now… perhaps for a while. A long while. I just broke my freaking external hard drive. And it’s totally 100% my fault. Basically my entire fandom life was there and now it’s gone.
Life can’t be more wonderful isn’t it?
So, I just came back from watching a Thailand movie with the title “I Miss U”. I know… the title sounds so generic and it’s “U” instead of “You”. But this is a supernatural movie from Thailand which is for me is more than enough reason despite that in every Thailand movie, I need to read double subtitles because they always provide us with English and Bahasa, but who cares… I’m already used to it :p
The premise of this movie based on some true stories about men who couldn’t let their dead spouses “go” because they made terrible mistakes that caused the death of their spouses. Sound familiar? Yes… for me this sounds awfully familiar because of The Mentalist and perhaps bunch of other stories.
The idea of the story may overused etc, but I think the executions and the messages in the end are the ones that make this movie unforgettable for me. I don’t think I ever cried this much for other movies.
So, the plot is about a male doctor whose his fiance dead in an accident. And even after two years…. he still do things that he usually do with her. For example once a year, he always go to their favorite restaurant and he always orders two set drinks even though there is no one in front of him. And someday, a girl comes into his life. She has almost similar spirits just like his dead fiance. Slowly he becomes friends with her and they do things that he usually do alone. And he is attracted to her and admits it. And later he confesses that he actually feels guilty because he is indirectly causes his fiance’s death. When the fatal accident happens, he doesn’t wait for an attended doctor for treatment because he is also a doctor but it is too late. Her wounds are just simply too fatal to be treated. And since this is a supernatural movies, his dead fiance ghost always around him and this makes me feel like he doesn’t deserve any happiness, like she blames him.
Later on the girl that he likes find out that there are more stories to this. The actual guilt is not about him who can’t save her but actually he is cheating on her and that their fight is what makes the accident happens. And finally the girl is willing to let her love for him goes, because this is something that she can’t fix. He tells her, “No one can help me!”. And the girl says, “It’s not because no one can’t help you! It’s you who don’t want to accept any help!” And after a while an accident happens to the girl. She almost lost her life. And the guy can’t handle any pressures again. So he tries to do suicide by swallowing bunch of sleeping pills. And after he swallows his pills, he sees his dead fiance in front of him. He asks whether he remembers his promise to her, “No matter where you go, I will always follow you.” But his dead fiance with smiling says, “But you forget more important promise, ‘when you’re happy… I’m happy’. So please find another happiness by keep living, find a woman to be loved.”. Then he asks again reason why she keep stays around him. And she answers because he can’t let her go. Whenever he puts wedding bouquet on that road where she died, she will feel terrible if she isn’t there to receive it. Whenever he orders to coffees, she just needs to sit there and accompanies him. So the real reason why she can’t die in peace… basically because of him.
The ending is more shocking. Apparently, it shows in the hospital how families can’t accept the death of their families members and it makes those who dead… can’t go. And apparently the male lead is dead, because after the girl who likes him put flowers beside his bed and talks to him, it shows how he sadly smiles and disappears. So, in the end, when he can finally let his fiance go, the girl that he left behind can’t let him go. It’s painfully ironic. And painfully great for me. It’s such a twist in such a horror/romantic movie. I think I cry in last 20 minutes. And to be honest, it makes me think a lot what if Jane dies and what will happen to Lisbon later, I’m sorry that I’m such a Mentalist fan. I can’t help it!
I will recommend followers who happen to read this post despite of warning, will try to watch this movie, but I know it’s hard if you don’t live in Asia and if you are not used to watch movie with subtitle x)
It has been more than a week since I made The Mentalist related stuff. Hopefully this trend will continue even longer.
was the graduation day for seniors in my school. I love these kids so much and I pray that they will reach whatever they try to reach in next step in their life. So much wonderful thing happens in my 2nd year as full time teacher and suddenly today I also signed contract for additional job in managing education curriculum. That means I have to work even harder in upcoming semester. And to be honest, I can’t wait to do that!